Jet Planes, Shopping, & Energy

I had a great weekend with my niece!  She’s been begging to sleep over at “Aunt Jennie’s,” so we finally arranged it.  I don’t think my brother was pleased at all… he sees me as a bad influence and all.  Despite that, it went better than I expected!

We spent the weekend Shopping!  I still have shin splints from all of the mucking about.  We bought jewelry… clothes… shoes.  We perused three shopping malls and six thrift stores.  After the stores closed, I took her out for a bit of pool!  Then home for pizza and grape soda.  And cake.  And cotton candy… mmmmmmm.

Some interesting conversations were had late into the wee hours.  She wanted to know all about her parents… what they were like when they were still young.  She asked if she was ever going to have an uncle!  Oy… she’s getting to be such a big girl.  Understanding things I’d rather she didn’t ask about.  I guess it happens to all kids eventually.

Of all the shopping we did, I was still shy that black shawl I was searching for.  My mum called me last night to let me know that my niece had found one for me at another mall, and she was very excited to surprise me with it.

I’ll be leaving on a jet plane tomorrow night… I’m nervous and excited all at the same time.  I keep getting those prickly chills on my leg — the energy is getting much closer now.  Although it’s a very positive energy (one of change and transformation), it’s actually been a bit difficult to sleep.  So many things to think about!

I can’t decide what to wear, so I think I’ll just pack enough clothes for 2 weeks — that way I’ll have plenty to choose from after I land.  I’m also having a really hard time deciding what color to paint my fingernails… red, I think.  But pink would be nice, too.  Or maybe blue.  I’ll just take them all and change my mind later.

Love, Peace & Happiness ~

Steak & Incense

Last night, I had a WONDERFUL steak — I’m getting pretty good at the whole cooking thing.  It was Montreal style — and a pink (but not raw) rare after marinating in sherry and spice.  Before I cooked it, I was trimming off any fat and I accidently dropped some raw bits onto the floor.  Jack (my fuzzy orange tabby) took care of the carnage before I could think about whether or not it’s good for him.  Yech…

I also broke open my new package of Dragon’s Blood incense… it is so fantastic.  I bought the 19″ sticks that last forever and an hour.

Anyway, I finally took in a good night’s sleep.  I love to see things fall into place.  I need to trust the wisdom of the Universe more often.  Things are looking… quite good right now.

Love, Peace & Happiness ~

Theory of Dreaming

I was planning to write more about the philosophy of what constitutes the “soul” of being a person (or what distinguishes the difference in matter between, say, a human & a tree!)  I changed my mind.  Not only is that theory a bit incomplete in my mind, but I’ve had some interesting dreams… that have compelled me to explore the theory of dreaming first.

Firstly, there’s the questions of “what are dreams?” and “from what are they derived?”  It is my theory that there are three elements to dreaming:  Psychological, Cosmic, & Chemical.

PSYCHOLOGICAL:  A manifestation of the state of the mind of the dreamer.   While sleeping, the conscious mind rests — and the subconscious runs amok!  Hidden hopes and fears form themselves as images.  This element is largely symbolic in nature and not to be interpreted literally.  One must pay close attention to the FEELING of the dream to understand it’s psychological meaning.  For example — one could have a dream about a destructive force of nature (tornado, fire, etc…)  Someone having this dream might FEEL as though external forces (society, circumstances, finances…) are out of one’s control, which leads the dreamer to FEEL helpless.  To dream of flood (of fighting the fate of drowning) one could be FEELING overwhelmed by emotions and situations currently in the dreamer’s life.

COSMIC:  With this element, I will tie in dreaming with deja vu — because I believe they are connected.  In the cosmic sense, I believe that we — as humans — are all connected through the collective consciousness.  When we dream of places we’ve never been or people we’ve never met, it is because we are on the same “channel” or “wavelength” as another dreamer.  It is in this manner that we are able to manifest in our own minds the sense of familiarity of the place, person, or situation — in our conscious minds — rendering the sensation of deja vu.  I’ll be writing much more about this element later because it really deserves its own entry.  In particular, I’ll explore WHY such people (dreamers) are connected to other particular souls and how this fits in with the Divine Design of the Universe.

CHEMICAL:  Let’s face it — eating that extra cheese pizza at 2 a.m. is never a good idea.  Not just for the obvious reason of impending indigestion and slower metabolism, but through a chain of bodily reactions, it chemically alters more than just your digestive system.  To avoid this kind of screwed up dream (chemically induced nightmare), avoid the late night snack & have a cup of green tea (which cleanses the body of impurities.)

So, what does it all mean?

“Know yourself, and you shall know the world”

Love, Peace & Happiness ~

HippieFest 2007!

HIPPIEFEST

08/04/2007: HIPPIEFEST
CESSNA STADIUM, WICHITA STATE UNIVERSITY
“Hippiefest” The Turtles Featuring Flo & Eddie The Zombies Featuring Colin Blunstone & Rod Argent Mountain Featuring Leslie West & Corkey Laing Mitch Ryder Bad Finger Featuring Joey Molland Denny Laine, Former Leader Singer of The Moody Blues  Iron Butterfly Country Joe McDonald Return to the flowery days of 1960 with the star-packed HippieFest 2007. This celebration of the ‘60s features some of the top names of the era. Together with the high energy sounds, HippieFest ’07 will bring you back to the days of peace, love and happiness. Tickets $25.00 to $50.00. Ticketsavailable through Select-A-Seat or by calling 316/755-7328, online by going to www.selectaseat.com

Yikes!!!  How exciting is that?  Such a fantastic event — in my own backyard!  I’ll be there with my beaded necklace & tie-dyed shirt on!

Love, Peace & Happiness ~

Back On Track

Things are better now than a few days ago. I succumbed to a little self-indulgence, but I’m back on track. I’ve managed to remain pretty productive during this time — taking care of business and doing quite a bit of reading in my spare time (lunch hour & just before bedtime) The recent topic of my fascination is metaphysics (predominantly “What makes a person a person?”) That isn’t exactly new territory for me, but it peaks from time to time. I contemplated getting a library card, but decided instead to purchase a few used books locally and online. Though I did, in fact, visit the library during lunch a few days ago. I’ll be posting more about my thoughts on this subject over the weekend.

In other news — I’m making a weekend trip back to my old ‘hood in a couple of weeks!
Can’t wait to get back to the civilization that I’ve grown accustomed to. Visit old friends,
meets some new friends, do some shopping, get sand in my shorts, and all that good stuff! Woo hoo! That reminds me… I have a great need for retail therapy. And I need to do something with my hair — a dye job is LONG overdue. :-O

Love, Peace & Happiness ~

P.S. – I keep getting those weird little chills on my right leg (See Liquid Energy). Something’s going to happen. It’s in the air. Energy… it’s getting stronger. Closer.

Family, Fireworks & Groovy Seedlings

I hope all the Stateside peeps had a fantastic 4th of July!!

I spent the day at my folks’ house with them and my niece and nephew. We had a great time — lots of food, lots of gun powder, and lots of laughs! The day started off pretty fair — dad grilled up a few steak fillets and made ice cream and we all ate until we couldn’t move.

Took a little walk with dad around the yard, and we came upon a groovy little crop of… one of my fave plants. I joked with him that I’d like to take them home with me and nurture them properly. LOL! He said, “Hold tight, I’ll go get a shovel!” He deposited it into a planter and placed it on the floor of the back seat of my car. Then… warned me to drive safely on the way home.

By late afternoon, we were already decorating the sky with fireworks… then it started raining! Much to my surprise, many of them still exploded beautifully! Explosions rock…

I’m back home now… it’s storming outside & hard to tell the thunder and lightning from the fireworks. My groovy little seedlings have been safely placed on my kitchen counter & have been given their vitamins. I absolutely love a rainy night!

Love, Peace & Happiness ~

GENESIS: “Taking It All Too Hard”

 ”Taking It All Too Hard” by Genesis

No not this confused again
No not the same mistakes again.
You’re taking it all to heart
You’re taking it all too hard

Why can’t you see what’s going on?
I know you’d never admit
You would ever be to blame
Everything’s a game to you
The old days are gone
And they’re better left alone
I cannot help you, it’s much too late

No not this confused again
No not the same mistakes again.
You’re taking it all to heart
You’re taking it all too hard

There’s always a reason why it happened
You never never did anything wrong, but
It just happened to fall apart
You’re taking it all too hard

Now that it’s dark, all of your fears,
Like shadows creeping around.
You’re much too scared to look down
And it’s lonely out on your own

The old days are gone
And they’re better left alone
But I still miss you
I keep it to myself

Oh no not this confused again
Oh no not the same mistakes again
You’re taking it all to heart
You’re taking it all too hard

Oh no not this confused again
Oh no not the same mistakes again
You’re taking it all to heart
You’re taking it all too hard
You’re taking it all to heart
You’re taking it all too hard

THE ROLLING STONES: “You Can’t Always Get What You Want”

“You Can’t Always Get What You Want” by The Rolling Stones

I saw her today at a reception
A glass of wine in her hand
I knew she would meet her connection
At her feet was her footloose man

No, you can’t always get what you want
You can’t always get what you want
You can’t always get what you want
And if you try sometime you find
You get what you need

I saw her today at the reception
A glass of wine in her hand
I knew she was gonna meet her connection
At her feet was her footloose man

You can’t always get what you want
You can’t always get what you want
You can’t always get what you want
But if you try sometimes you might find
You get what you need

Oh yeah, hey hey hey, oh…

And I went down to the demonstration
To get my fair share of abuse
Singing, “We’re gonna vent our frustration
If we don’t we’re gonna blow a 50-amp fuse”
Sing it to me now…

You can’t always get what you want
You can’t always get what you want
You can’t always get what you want
But if you try sometimes well you just might find
You get what you need
Oh baby, yeah, yeah!

I went down to the Chelsea drugstore
To get your prescription filled
I was standing in line with Mr. Jimmy
And man, did he look pretty ill
We decided that we would have a soda
My favorite flavor, cherry red
I sung my song to Mr. Jimmy
Yeah, and he said one word to me, and that was “dead”
I said to him

You can’t always get what you want, no!
You can’t always get what you want (tell ya baby)
You can’t always get what you want (no)
But if you try sometimes you just might find
You get what you need
Oh yes! Woo!

You get what you need–yeah, oh baby!
Oh yeah!

I saw her today at the reception
In her glass was a bleeding man
She was practiced at the art of deception
Well I could tell by her blood-stained hands

You can’t always get what you want
You can’t always get what you want
You can’t always get what you want
But if you try sometimes you just might find
You just might find
You get what you need

You can’t always get what you want (no, no baby)
You can’t always get what you want
You can’t always get what you want
But if you try sometimes you just might find
You just might find
You get what you need, ah yes…

PHIL COLLINS: “Through These Walls”

“Through These Walls” by Phil Collins

I can hear thru these walls
I can hear it when they’re foolin’ around
I can hear thru these walls
And I hear every sign, every sound
I can hear thru these walls
In the dark with the shades pulled down

Every word that they say
Every noise they make feels its coming my way

My favorite moment
Putting the glass up next to the wall
Imagination
Tho I see nothing, I hear it all
Putting my sign up
Do not disturb me, speak or shout, inside out
Oh mind my clothes, they’re all laid out

I can see thru my windows
I can see the girls and the boys
I can see thru my windows
And I can imagine the noise
I can see thru my windows
I can see them playing with toys

Oh I hope it won’t end
If I promise not to touch, just be a friend

Life is so lonely
I don’t get high off just being me
I like pretending
Wanting to touch them, wanting to see
It’s only normal
Creeping behind you, now don’t shout, cos it’s alright
They keep the windows locked and the door shut tight

Oo I’m feeling like I’m locked in a cage
No way in, no way out, and it gets so lonely
Am I really asking a lot
Just to reach out and touch somebody
cos when I look thru my windows or open my door
I can feel it all around me

I can hear thru these walls
I can hear it when they’re foolin’ around
I can hear thru these walls
And I hear every sight, evrey sound
I can hear thru these walls
In the dark with the shades pulled down

Every word that they say
Every noise they make feels its coming my way

(Just a side note — I actually have this song on 45 rpm — the pictograph.  One of my prized possessions!)

Children Are the Future

“And how many words have I got to say
And how many times will it be this way
With your arms around the future
And your back up against the past
You’re already falling it’s calling you
On to face the music” – Moody Blues

Much like the sun peeking through the darkness of this past week’s cloudy days, I have had a revelation:
I definitely want to have children.

Not that I’ve been against it before… but as with everything in my life, I’ve learned that I must first be consciously open to change and transformation.  I have to plant my intent within the consciousness of the powers that be.  So here it is — just throwing it out there to scatter like the seeds of a dandelion.  Lead the way, Summer Breeze!

What tipped the scales?  Spending time with kids.  This past couple of months have been a joy in that way.  My brother has some fantastic kids, and I’ve had the pleasure of getting to know them again.  My niece called me this afternoon to ask if I’d take her for miniature golf & bowling this Friday — my mum says it’s all she can talk about now.  I’m pretty stoked myself!

I do realise that in order to have children, even by the most advanced scientific methods, it technically takes two to tango.  I’m an old-fashioned soul… so… that desire, too, I am presenting to the collective consciousness.  I am open now to the joys of life that can only be had by sharing one’s life with others… and I’m looking forward to what the future may bring.

Love, Peace & Happiness ~